Wednesday, September 14, 2011

teetering

I plopped down in the chair still teetering on if I would say anything at all.

"I just need it cleaned up" is my usual response. I hesitated, grabbing a few strands with my right hand and pulling the hair through my fingers, finally punctuating the silence "and I was thinking about getting a few feathers".

There, I said it.

I sat back to gauge her, but it felt necessary to talk before her... "only if it doesn't take too long" as I glanced in the reflection in the mirror of my son twirling a blueberry sucker around his mouth and my daughter sitting in the stroller sucking on her bottom lip, each suck like a time bomb marking the seconds I have remaining until she blows up.

"Of course (like she speaks my non-communicated, mom language) they just take a few minutes".

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When someone notices them in my hair, I still teeter. Teetering sides between loving them, loving that feeling of being young, that feeling of throwing around the word hip once again and then teetering to the side of feeling silly, too old for such a frivolous things like feathers in your hair.

I turn 35 next month, maybe it's has something to do with it... teetering exactly between 30 and 40.


But sometimes you just have to say fuck it and go for it.

18 comments:

Unknown said...

Personally, I think they are freaking awesome! And here's a secret: I sometimes think about getting them, too.

4luvandlife said...

I think you look great! I also think you should stay fun and young because you are.

Krystyn @ Really, Are You Serious? said...

It rocks on you because you rock!

MostlyFlumxdArt said...

They're cute. My girls want some...

Christina said...

You look great! I'm glad you teetered towards the feathers!

L. Shanna said...

Love it! I'm inspired to get some myself.

Shan said...

Well here's the dividing line on whether you're old or not:

I thought you meant *feathers*... like Farrah Fawcett.

You're not old. You are young and hip and (as ever) beautiful.

Emmy said...

Good for you! At almost 31 I always feel somewhere between being young and cool or just old and silly

Jessie C said...

Cute!

An Imperfect Momma said...

I think you are awesome. And it looks great. Sometimes you really do just gotta go for it

Heather B said...

fyi - you've now (implicitly) given me permission to go to my salon and add the feathers I've been talking about for the last 3 months...ok ok...maybe it's been 6. either way...I'm heading there tonight. :P

justme said...

I almost got hair tinsel this summer. Alas, I didn't do it. But, I say go for it! Do what makes you feel happy ... And young. You said it best - fuck it!

Working Mommy said...

Well, since 40 is the new 20 - then 35 is the new 15...enjoy your new found youth!!

wm

Unknown said...

I love it! And I love your haircut--gorgeous! You totally rock it.

Murdock's mama said...

Aren't they the coolest?! I love them! :)

Janelle Halverson said...

LOVE IT!!

amanda said...

no you didn't!!!! dying dying dying!!

and living through you!!!

can't wait to discuss tomorrow :)

Jen Westpfahl said...

Forget the feathers - I'm still trying to figure out how you go to the salon WITH KIDS.

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